TOXIC BITCH EP

by SLOUCH

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SWIM/FIGHT/SURVIVE IN THIS SEA OF SHIT:
TOXIC HELLWORLD NAMES YOU "TOXIC BITCH"

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released June 9, 2015

RECORDED BY JOEY AT PUNKALL MAY 2015
COVER PHOTOS BY JORDI AND KARL

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SLOUCH Olympia, Washington

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Track Name: MY TURN
You are nothing new
We've been watching you
Now you want to play
But we've come to...
Win this filthy game
Send you on your way
Make you run in fear
You will disappear

Now you're runnin'
And I'm coming after you
Now you're runnin'
And there's nothing you can do
Tell me something
Tell me now am I invisible to you
Now you're runnin'
And there's nothing you can do

The tables are turning
Your bridges are burning
The water is rising
We're coming after you
With nowhere to go
And nothing to show
You've lost the filthy game
And there's nothing you can do

Now we've won
Now you're gone
You're afraid
'Cause we made you pay
Track Name: N/A/G - Not A Girl
There is a part of me that I don't let you see
You only know me as what I refuse to be

DISHONOR MY GENDER - DISHONOR ME

Ignore my wishes, label me as "she"
But refuse to see my sister how she wants to be seen
Honor her existence, then backtrack to old ways
Your truth has been revealed as lies, but you don't trust when she says:

THIS ISN'T ME, THIS IS NOT REALITY

This isn't me, not my reality, this isn't me

There is a part of me that I don't let you see
You only know me as what I refuse to be
Ignore my wishes, label me as "she"
But refuse to see my sister how she wants to be seen
I'm getting sicker as we fail to appear
You vision worsens while I try to make it clear
Tell me you're trying but it's hard to adjust
If we can't trust you, then who else can we trust?

THIS IS NOT REALITY
DISHONOR MY GENDER - DISHONOR ME
Track Name: FILTH
Have too many questions and it feels like I'm insane
Can't finish one thought before another screams my name
There's no left, no right, and no more me
I go from hot to cold so quickly I'm unable to see
Heat is building pressure, now the steam is in my eyes
I've told you all my truths but all you're feeding me is lies
Hungry like before but now the void won't fill
I've always hated myself, but it's you I want to kill
Something always burning in the back of my mind
Stomach's always turning, now I'm falling behind
So much in this world to hate I don't know how to stop
You've forced me to the bottom but I'll beat you to the top
Nothing feels good anymore I can't maintain this lie
Trying to survive but it gets harder not to cry
You're just the filth
Track Name: TRICH
My fingers are grasping
They're finding every thread
I think of your memory
And pull it from my head
I pull you out, then chew you up
Then spit you out instead

It isn't working
Forever present

My fingers are grasping
They're finding every thread
I think about the wounded
And pull us from my head
I pull us out, then chew us up
Then spit us out in stead

This isn't working
And now it's showing in my speech
And the way I do my hair
I try to wear a shield
But it's hidden in a glare

It's showing on my skin
And the color of my eyes
Ask me have I pulled today
I'll answer you with lies
Pulling out the anger
Pulling the abuse
I try to tie my hands but it just isn't any use

Oh, please
I'm pleading with myself
You've got to find a new release
Oh, you know
You've got to strengthen at the knees
Oh, you know
You've got to strengthen at the

Knees that hold your body
The body that we've built
Don't let that body crumble under all the shame and guilt

Create your own salvation
Track Name: LEARNING TO LIVE
In my mind I hold self-loathing, beside it sits self-doubt
I'm blamed and I am scolded, "There's nothing to cry about,
You're weak and you are selfish, what a stupid thing to say."
I repeat, "Sometimes I want to die, I don't choose to feel this way."

I'm working on my hatred, built up so many years
I'm working on my sadness, I'm working on my fears
I'm working on knowing what it is I really need
I'm working on my worthlessness, I'm working on my greed.

It's pretty ignorant to tell me I'm not giving this life everything that I've got
"Sometimes I want to die, but I don't choose to feel this way"
I'm always struggling to know what I need, but I wake up every day and that's only up to me
"Sometimes I want to die, but I don't choose to feel this way"

In my mind I hold self-loathing, beside it sits self-doubt
I'm blamed and I am scolded, "There's nothing to cry about,
You're weak and you are selfish, what a stupid thing to say."
I repeat, "Sometimes I want to die, I don't choose to feel this way."
Track Name: PARTED WOOL
Your head is getting bigger
Your mouth is open wide
I'll take the opportunity to force feed you your pride
The taste is unexpected
The bitterness of lies
I'm peeling back your veil to show your tattered up disguise

Wolf in sheep skin

You want to be the solution
But you can see what needs to be done
You try so hard to do it right
But we're out of mind, and we're out of sight

The opportunity to reject the bad
Is where you left it with the life you had